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Friday, 20 February 2009

highschool life.

Prom.
April 8. I asked my long time crush,(not crush anymore I told her how I felt a long time ago.) She agreed. I had always wanted her to go to my prom ever since I took her to my freshmen dance. Why. Beyond the face that she is totally stunning, kind, and helping. Back when I took her to my freshmen dance, I was boring, and sat around most of the time. So she didn't have a good time, no matter what she said. I made myself a promise that I would show her the best of time when I take her to Prom.

Friday, 23 January 2009

Through it all...

It doesn't get any easier. We would bump into each other everywhere. I would glance a look and quickly look away. She would look over then pretend to do something else. Is it just me or is there something there, something that need to be said. Maybe it's just me. She probably looking at me because she sense me looking at her. This is going nowhere and fast. We're drifting apart further and further every passing day.
"Magical"
When I see her, near her, she occupy her time with her female friends. You see that's the problem. Girls travel in packs like wolves. They are dangerous alone but when they are together, deadly. Don't even think about it when a girls with her friends. Why does she do that. It seems like she don't want to talk to me yet, I catch her looking at me. I want to talk to her but I fear. I fear I know the answer. I guess girls are not worth all that trouble. It's not worth it getting into all the hassle for the girl. If you asked me six months ago, if a girl this special is worth all the mind trick, drama, and such I would of not hesitated and said YES! defiantly worth it. Now six months wiser, I feel that if the girl is putting out too much mind tricks and mix signals she probably is not worth all that. Too bad, I had so much feelings for her, but all these questions I have for her and she never replied is not worth it. Time to move on. No more peeking at what she's doing, no more wanting to be with her. I'm done. Time to move on. That's a shame though, if she got the chance to get to know the real me she would most definitely like me. And I know if I got to know she more this feeling would grow into something "magical." She dose not want to so there is nothing I can do.
It doesn't get any easier. We would bump into each other everywhere. I would glance a look and quickly look away. She would look over then pretend to do something else. Is it just me or is there something there, something that need to be said. Maybe it's just me. She probably looking at me because she sense me looking at her. This is going nowhere and fast. We're drifting apart further and further every passing day.
"Magical"
When I see her, near her, she occupy her time with her female friends. You see that's the problem. Girls travel in packs like wolves. They are dangerous alone but when they are together, deadly. Don't even think about it when a girls with her friends. Why does she do that. It seems like she don't want to talk to me yet, I catch her looking at me. I want to talk to her but I fear. I fear I know the answer. I guess girls are not worth all that trouble. It's not worth it getting into all the hassle for the girl. If you asked me six months ago, if a girl this special is worth all the mind trick, drama, and such I would of not hesitated and said YES! defiantly worth it. Now six months wiser, I feel that if the girl is putting out too much mind tricks and mix signals she probably is not worth all that. Too bad, I had so much feelings for her, but all these questions I have for her and she never replied is not worth it. Time to move on. No more peeking at what she's doing, no more wanting to be with her. I'm done. Time to move on. That's a shame though, if she got the chance to get to know the real me she would most definitely like me. And I know if I got to know she more this feeling would grow into something "magical." She dose not want to so there is nothing I can do.
It doesn't get any easier. We would bump into each other everywhere. I would glance a look and quickly look away. She would look over then pretend to do something else. Is it just me or is there something there, something that need to be said. Maybe it's just me. She probably looking at me because she sense me looking at her. This is going nowhere and fast. We're drifting apart further and further every passing day.
"Magical"
When I see her, near her, she occupy her time with her female friends. You see that's the problem. Girls travel in packs like wolves. They are dangerous alone but when they are together, deadly. Don't even think about it when a girls with her friends. Why does she do that. It seems like she don't want to talk to me yet, I catch her looking at me. I want to talk to her but I fear. I fear I know the answer. I guess girls are not worth all that trouble. It's not worth it getting into all the hassle for the girl. If you asked me six months ago, if a girl this special is worth all the mind trick, drama, and such I would of not hesitated and said YES! defiantly worth it. Now six months wiser, I feel that if the girl is putting out too much mind tricks and mix signals she probably is not worth all that. Too bad, I had so much feelings for her, but all these questions I have for her and she never replied is not worth it. Time to move on. No more peeking at what she's doing, no more wanting to be with her. I'm done. Time to move on. That's a shame though, if she got the chance to get to know the real me she would most definitely like me. And I know if I got to know she more this feeling would grow into something "magical." She dose not want to so there is nothing I can do.

Wednesday, 14 January 2009

I Need Your "Yes"

Dear Sweetheart,

This is not a sudden urge that has prompted me to write you. When I first met you I was struck by your simplicity and by your sweetness of speech and manner that it became difficult for me to shut you out of my mind. Your bewitching smile captivated my heart, and the more I tried to forget you the more I began to think of you

It is hard for me to be sincere let alone talk to you at the same time. I very do so wish to vocalize my feelings toward you but my fear prohibits me. When I talk to you my heart is beating so fast, and when i talk i can't think. To the point that I barely remember what is it that I said. You mesmerize me. and that's why I fear. I wish I could tell you how every time you don't show up for class I fear that I would never see you again. Or that you will get into some trouble; I just want to protect you so much.

I see you sometimes and you look down even though you may pretend otherwise. I wish you would open up to me and let me in to your life. I know it wouldn't be easy but I still believe that I could be good for you, if only you could return my feelings.

I fear that this will not turn out the way I hope but I pray that it does. As I said before, you may never know the true extent of my feelings although I would imagine you have some suspicions. This may be a crush or infatuation but I swear to you that it does not feel like it, as I have had crushes before but never really felt the kinds of emotions I do for you.

I hope that if I can muster the courage to tell you how I feel, that whatever your feelings, it will turn out okay and that at the very least we can be good friends, but I long for so much more.

Now that I've found you, I'll promise to take good care of you. And even though I don't know what your true feelings for me are, I'll still love you the best way I can. Thank you for those things that you've done to me. And if the time comes that you find someone better than me, just let me know - even though it hurts, I'll set you free, I want you to know that I would much rather have you in my life and take a chance at losing you than not having you at all and wondering throughout, what it would have been like between us! What I'm trying to ask you is - would you take a chance with me?

love always,

Should I give this to her?.
Are love letter over rated?
Would she respond positively, or think i am some weirdo freak stalker guy?

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Update.
Since prom is around the corner, I mustered some courage(after weeks of contemplation) and asked her. My heat pound against my heart so fast, I would barely remember what she or I said. But one thing I remember, she looked at me with this sorrowful, sympathetic on the face and told me she already had a date. (her exact words: "I think I have a date already") If it was anyone else I would of proceeded and ask who it was or see if i can change her mind. With her, my heart was holding me back, trying to save what dignity I had left. I'm not sure but she was really sorry. Why would she be, I am the sorry one. I told her it was okay and left. Stupid move on my part.
(that was yesterday)
today.
We tried to make things less awkward as possible. Exchanging little words. What a day today was. setting foot out of my car, she was there stepping out of the bus. I thought to myself that it's a sign. I should talk to her and see if there is anything I could do to change her mind. But the day ended, I spoke nothing.

Hope for tomorrow.
I would confront her and see if I could change her mind. Without pressuring her. If not, see if she wants to hangout and have lunch.
And that it would be less AWKWARD!